Are You Happy

Are you happy, do you feel good that I am not there, why do you care now, you can just stop caring
I am doing so well without you
Good bye yes good bye, I don’t miss you

Even the day we became others we couldn’t erase the trace we were drawn in the ennui
Maybe we wanted to stop watching each other’s tiredness in the obvious excuses
Either of us had to be the villain, it’s the goodbye that I said first after consideration
That was the best for me, and the years got fixed in just a few minutes when I said it
It was an free and bitter end, maybe that’s when drying emotional cells
Started comparing her with you whomever I meet and lock me in the silence of fool over again
I hesitate every day in front of the call button. My friends keep telling me not to do stupid thing
I think you might be same as me and I think about your voice

The ending was still in my mind and it bothered me more as time goes
Our breakup was not clean enough, this discomfort chased me still
A little guilt and the memory of you that licked one day
And our relationship that wasn’t short, I think those are all covered with yearning. I am like that these days
I grabbed and kept asking my friend who bumped into you all day long
I kept asking and hearing the same thing, what have I expected knowing that there is no answer that I wanted
I know there is no other chance but I still pinch myself to the place you are
I pretend not hearing you saying don’t even care, and I am wandering in front of you

I know whatever I say wouldn’t matter now
But I cannot turn around with the late regret and lingering in my full heart
I want to hear even your annoyed words, I am afraid of indifference
I will make it up to you now, again to you